Thursday, November 20, 2008
Follow the Yellow Brick Road
Don't I wish. I'm looking for the yellow brick road to take me to the wizard who will hopefully send me back home, because I'm obviously living in an alternate reality. But the truth is I know I am dealing with things that lots of other people deal with on a daily basis, and worse. Do you ever get confused with how you are supposed to react or respond to family when you know that no matter what, it's gonna either come out wrong, be perceived wrong or in some instances, send you running for the hills for fear of losing your head? "Off with her head!" they'd say.
I have so many burning questions and the severe desire to just vomit my problems all over the web, but perhaps that wouldn't be the right way to go about sensitive situations. I have more of a need to free myself from burdens then to perhaps blab anything.
Some things seem so cut and dry, but when it comes down to action, or reaction, it just isn't that simple. How do you help people who don't want to help themselves? How do you love someone, but put up healthy boundaries at the same time? What about the innocent that are involved, do you just turn away? Is it correct to just mind my own business, watch people fall apart....for what? To say I told you so? No. I told you so isn't the point. The point is when they fall apart, I fall apart because I care about them. But at the same time, I pull away because it's in the best interest of some to keep some distance.
It's all very confusing.
BTW, my first revolution will be to reveal my true self! More on that later.